Saturday, March 24, 2012

BFFs. Seriously dude.

I can't believe it's been four years since I graduated from high school. 

I don't feel old enough to be an adult. In a week from today, I will be back in my home town, celebrating my best friend's 21st birthday. And I get to see four of the most precious girls ever! :D

We were 'The Love Club'. You know that nursery rhyme about little girls being made of sugar and spice and all things nice, ribbon bows, rainbows, tea parties and lace? We're those girls. Of course, now that we're older, we get to throw in fun things like boyfriends and cocktails! :D

When we're together, we laugh more than we talk. If I had my way, I would take them with me everywhere I went. They're the most driven, fabulous girls I know.

Next Saturday night is all that is getting me through this final week of assignments and essays.. I love you all and miss you even more!

Updating this photo in a week.. :D :D 
I'll post some party photos too.

Anyway, back to work for me.. :) 


PS. I skipped another photo day, I KNOW. I'm terrible at this. :/ 

Thursday, March 22, 2012

University is the place where souls go to die.

And just in case you manage to escape with your soul intact until third year, the commerce section of the library is where they send you to finish the job. 

I didn't post a photo yesterday. I'm cutting myself some slack because it was a public holiday and I didn't get out of bed until 3 in the afternoon. Today hasn't been delightful either and by that I mean, it's been a completely exhausting, overwhelming poop fest. Sigh. I had to go into the commerce section of the library to get the books for my History essay. I cannot explain how much this pained me. It was incredibly depressing. There were lots of words I didn't understand and the people weren't very nice either. It was like the horrible version of Narnia. 
I better get back to writing now. I have two more articles to write tonight. -insert deep, dramatic sigh-
At least tomorrow is FRIDAAAAYYYYY... :D


Tuesday, March 20, 2012

The Clothes Crisis of March 2012. -___-

This morning I changed ten times. TEN. I don't think I can explain the frustration of it all. (I have such problems, I know..  :P) Today I have late classes so I'm heading to the - EW - to do some work. If I don't return in the next few hours, know that I have died of silence and depression and that I love you all.

Everyone have a lovely Tuesday and if you're a reader from South Africa, PUBLIC HOLIDAY TOMORROW! :D :D :D If there's one thing our country gets right, it's the staggering amount of public holidays we have in a year...


Monday, March 19, 2012

Good Morning world! :D

It has been SUCH a good morning. Even though I still smell distinctly like chlorine, I achieved my goal of swimming 1km and so am quite happy with myself. Having a quick cup of coffee before I start class. It's going to be a good Monday! :D 

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Simply beautiful..*

I was reading a philosophy essay called Death by Thomas Nagel and it puts forward the suggestion that despite your experiences and circumstances, it is good to be alive. And as I lay there thinking about it, a RHCP's song came on called Around the World and even though I normally can't hear a single damn word of that song, I heard "Life is beautiful!". I'm not one for cosmic or divine signs, but if that isn't a message then I just don't know any more.

Whenever I feel overwhelmed or sad, I take a deep breath and feel my heart beat, strong and steady and I know that life is good enough. Life is what it is and just quietly, it can absolutely blow sometimes..  but just be happy, it's just not worth the effort to be sad.

Happy Sunday everyone! There are only two more weeks of term left and then, it's time for Easter break. I can't believe it's here already.


Sunday afternoon. Sitting in the sun, preparing for the week, absolutely in love with my life. :) 'Here I am, a bundle of past recollections and future dreams, knotted up in a reasonable attractive bundle of flesh.' - Sylvia Plath

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Spending St. Patricks in bed :(

Home alone on a Saturday. Laaaaaaaaaaaame.
All evening I've had to listen to people walking past my window, mostly roaring drunk and laughing, heading into town to celebrate St. Patricks.

I'm considering going out in my doggie PJ pants and sweater. :(  

Sigh. It's just beyond ridiculous.

But I'm feeling too sore and tired to venture out of my bed. I've comforted myself with Grey's Anatomy reruns and a giant pizza.

I have quite a bit of work to get through this weekend, so I'll only put up another proper post on Monday or Tuesday. Until then, I hope everyone is having an *amazing* St. Patricks' weekend.


Friday, March 16, 2012

The cocktail adventures of me and the Trinket Spotter*

This is how I spent my Thursday evening. You may be jealous now. ;) It is completely acceptable (and classy) to have a drink mid-week, if what you're drinking looks as beautiful as this. 

Two for one cocktail hour! LOVE    

And here are two pictures for Day 5.  I couldn't decide which I liked. (Yes I'm that vain.

Without glasses?
With glasses?

Also, I thought I'd include a picture of a good friend of mine, Dale, so that you know that I DO have friends. I don't spend all my time taking photos of myself. She's just started a photo vintage fashion blog called Trinket Spotter. I think it's #chictothenextlev! :P Have a quick look-see if you're into unique, vintage fashion photos and accessories. She takes the photos herself of people around our university.

The Trinket Spotter*

Other than that, I hope everyone is having a good weekend.  :) I hope everyone manages to hold onto their faces (and dignity) for St. Patrick's tomorrow. 



Thursday, March 15, 2012

"So if you love me baby, this is how you let me know, don't ever let me go."

I was sitting in bed last night with what my boyfriend calls my bucket of tea [photo] contemplating all possible ways to pronounce the word "rastaquouere" when that ridiculous Skype ring tone interrupted my thoughts. It was time for my daily date with my boyfriend. As I wait for the call to connect, I feel the excitement build up in my tummy. Even though we've been together for almost 2 years now, it happens every day.

We spend a few hours talking and eventually fall asleep on Skype. Sometimes the call runs for the entire night and we whisper good morning to each other the next day.

Mostly people don't understand long distance. They say we spend too much time talking, that it's unhealthy and that it's not real. But most people have never loved someone as much as I love him. I don't think you can ever really say that you would never do long distance until you're faced with the decision and sometimes, letting a person walk out of your life because of geography just doesn't seem like a good enough reason.

Before you close the window because you think this is about to become the longest, sappiest post ever - don't worry. It's almost over.

I'm not in a long distance relationship because I'm socially incapable of dating someone who lives near by me. I'm in a long distance relationship because there's only one person I want to be in a relationship with and he happens to live really far away. It's the not the best situation ever and as soon as I have a chance to change it, I will. But for now, it's better than nothing. And I would rather have this - this painful, difficult relationship that requires so much more work - than not have him at all.


PS. Day 4. Photo 4. :)

I wish I was actually working in this photo and not just pretending so that people think I'm smart.  ;)

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

I bet you've never seen one this big before...

10:55pm. I've decided to have a GIANT cup of tea before I go to bed.  I swam 750m today and my body feels like it's been hit by a bus. Baby steps obviously mean nothing to me. :P Oh well. Early morning swim tomorrow. It's almost the weekend everyone! :D x0


Tuesday, March 13, 2012

A little early morning nostalgia... :)

6:15am wake up for my morning swim with a friend. It's probably the earliest I've been awake since high school.
It was a good start to the day though, I spent some time sitting in the sun afterwards, and it made me miss the days of life regulated by bells, assemblies, uniforms and PE. :)


Monday, March 12, 2012

Kony 2012: A lesson in thought

This morning I almost washed my face with the liquid soap I use to clean my basin.

Thank god it has a distinct smell or I might have. I keep reminding myself to move it but I never do. I don't think I ever will and one day, I really will wash my face with it. (Oh the horror)

If you're concerned that I'll spend a whole post ranting on about liquid soap, I'll put your mind to rest now.

For those of you who subscribe to my Facebook profile, you will have noticed that I've been quite agitated by the whole "Stop Kony 2012" initiative started by Invisible Children. I'll state upfront that I do not support the cause or the charity, I do not condone the use of social media as a tool to shape public opinion - especially when that opinion is not well informed. But it did start me thinking...
The biggest challenge you will face in all your online experiences is learning to think critically about everything you see, watch and read. Kony 2012 should be a lesson in that. Treat the news the same way you would an invitation for lunch from a stranger - always with a healthy dose of scepticism and the desire to want to know more before you accept it.
A few months ago I made the change over to a public profile on Facebook and allowed subscribers. It was more of a change than I had bargained for because my social media became a space that I had to think very carefully about, not just a random space for me to churn out whatever I thought was interesting or funny. I learnt how to refine my posts and how to think critically about what I was sharing.
Everything is now something a potential employer could see. 
I don't think this ability to think critically should be limited to people who have chosen the public route for social media. The internet is filled with so much complete and utter crap content that it's hard to make sense of it all. Most of the time, we do a good job of separating material but somehow this filter fails when it comes to something controversial. I'm guilty of it too - I hear something particularly interesting and my first thought is to share it on every platform I have. This is dangerous because then we risk propagating ideas and images that are false.

Use Kony 2012 as a lesson. Watch the video. And then spend half an hour reading more about Joseph Kony. FIND OUT WHERE UGANDA ACTUALLY IS. Read some history, read Ugandan opinions, read news articles, anything.. And then, if you still feel that sharing the video is your best option, do it. I can respect that. Think critically.

That's all for today guys, I shall write again soon. I promise to stop the gloom and doom.


PS. I've also decided to take a picture of myself every day.. The idea is to post something online every day - a thought and a picture.

"People demand freedom of speech as a compensation for the freedom of thought which  they seldom use. "
The internet gives you the space to say whatever you want to, think carefully about what it is you're saying... 

Monday, March 5, 2012

Searching the Web stealthily...

I've decided to repost the 'Stealth' post from my old blog since the Google privacy policy change, so you might have read some of this before. :)

This whole regular posting thing is tiring, WHOSE IDEA WAS THIS?! -____-

Also, it seems my scheduled post for Saturday wasn't good enough for Blogger so it's still twiddling its thumbs in my drafts. I'll post it next weekend or something. A while ago, my boyfriend declared Angry Birds war on me and used to challenged me every night [I believe the score is 39946248792874 to 1 in my favour.] Haaha!

And now that it has come to Facebook, I fear my nights might be overtaken by Angry Birds killing pigs.

....I can't decide how to link my random introduction to the rest of my post, I believe the word I'm looking for is anywaaayy..

If you read one of my previous posts about Google, then you might remember that a little while ago Google decided  to integrate your social network with your Google searches - meaning that what you see on Google when you search for things might not be the highest priority items, just how Google has ranked it in terms of your stored information. And as of a few days ago, Google launched its new privacy policy that gives it access to your entire stored web history (I did tell you to erase it..) and integrates all of your Google accounts into one place. Here's the link to that post: Google's New Privacy Policy

In light of all this, I've decided to give a little start up website some attention purely because they've taken advantage of this new market that Google has created - a market of people who don't want their every search logged, their IP tracked and their internet footprint gathered into an astronomical Google profile.

This is where Stealth comes in.

Stealth is a search engine that allows you to roam the internet free and wild. It's all about protecting your privacy, a word that in recent months has become a very technical, dicey thing as companies redefine it to suit their needs.

Technically, Google isn't violating your privacy when it gathers your past searched terms and generates a profile for you so that they can place targeted adverts. You created your account. You consented to their terms when you signed up. And aren't targeted adverts beneficial to you anyway?

So. not. the. point.

In a clever move, Jon Cook the founder stepped in and filled this niche.

Speaking to Mashable, he said:

“One of the scary things about Google is they track everything you do even when you aren’t on Google. I think people want real privacy and that is what Stealth offers.”

Cook also lists reasons for you to switch over -

Will you make use of this new search engine? Do you think Cook has a valid point or are you not concerned either way with what information Google collects about you?

Message me, you know how I crave the attention. :D


Sunday, March 4, 2012

Damned if I do, damned if I don't? I might as well then.

Someone once told me that you make your lifelong friends when you're in university and that you leave your school friends behind.

I don't see how that's possible.

University - your first time away from home, your first step into adulthood, your first chance to explore who you are and who you could be. And it all happens in three or four years.

When you arrive, you're just about reaching the end of your teen years, hoping to leave behind all the chaos and confusion. The truth is that university is probably more tumultuous than your teen years ever were. And the mistakes you make now, are bigger and messier and scarier. They're harder to deal with because you aren't a kid any more and in this new world, apologies don't always fix things.

I came to Rhodes feeling confident of who I was, I'd always had a strong sense of self. It didn't take very long for Rhodes and the students here to teach me otherwise. I made a lot of mistakes. And unlike my best friend from back home, the people here didn't let me forget them. I was thankful for time alone, because when I was alone I could be the girl I knew I was. Out there, I couldn't escape from the person they thought I was. And the longer I stayed out, the more I began to believe I really was that girl and I hated myself for it.

I will never believe that you make your lifelong friends when you're in university. Not in these short years when you're changing so rapidly. Not when people only have three years to get to know you.

There are the couple girls who I will carry for the rest of my life. But most of the people from university will disappear into the background, as Rhodes will in a few months time. Not because I hate them or Rhodes, simply because it's time. Time to leave behind the people who have only seen my hardest, and most turbulent years and biggest mistakes and who have formed their opinions of me solely around those events. It is time to grow up and realise that my reputation in Grahamstown will mean nothing in nine months.

And as I enter my last year, I'm aware more than ever, that the girl who arrived here, is the same girl who will leave. Turns out, I was always the girl I thought I was. And I'm sorry for the people who never got to see her.

I have a friend who sees her.

She has blue eyes, blonde curly hair and the most infectious laugh you've ever heard. And we've made so many mistakes together, that we can hardly judge each other for them. There is no one like her. I love her to death and I would do anything for her. She'll be there when I get married and when I have my first baby. She'll be the first person I call when my kid has to go to school for the first time and I'm losing my mind entirely.

I met in her in high school. Her name is Claire. And you wish you knew her - trust me.

And so, as far as "lifelong friends from university and school friends not making the cut" goes - I'm sticking with my story.

Friday, March 2, 2012

On new journeys and change*

Dear everyone :)

For those of you who read this blog regularly (She said, hopefully) you will know that it has grown into a reflection space for me, for dealing with being in a long term, long distance relationship - both of which are entirely new experiences for me. My blog archive tracks my relationship over the months, as we've grown together. 

This is my final year at Rhodes university and as I move into a different space, I'm thinking about recreating what this blog is and what it represents. I've spent a long time thinking about the design and the things I post and how I should continue. So coming up in the next few weeks, I will be trying to redesign this blog and rethink some of the content, perhaps moving away from the relationship based content I've been putting out for two years. 

Starlit Corner* came from the idea of a tiny space that each person has to fill with all the things that make up who they are. A space where they can put out on display parts of their lives, thoughts, dreams.. a space they can light up. Star* grew from this idea. She was all the things I was and hoped to grow into. She started out more as a character in my mind than as my own identity. I could imagine the things she would do and say and represent. These days, I come to think of myself as her more often.

When I started my relationship, Starlit Corner* was moulded into a reflection of that journey. And though it hasn't ended yet, far from it, I've begun a new journey and Starlit Corner* will once again be remoulded. I turn 21 in 3 months and by then, I hope Starlit Corner* will be something entirely different and new.

I hope that you continue to read my work and that I continue to inspire you. 
Thank you for your support. :) 

Have a great weekend. 

PS. I've started developing a public profile on Facebook and [quite excitingly] I've reached 56 subscribers. So, if you'd like to know me a little better outside of my blog, then you can contact me on Facebook. I'm thinking about allowing subscriber comments on my posts, but I'm not quite sure of that yet. That's all for now. :) x